Now I don't know what to freagging write.

It felt like a good idea a minute ago, now I'm not quite sure where this is going. I thought this would be a good way for me to deal with my issues. Trust me there are plenty, so start subscribing.
I just broke-up with this guy I wasn't in a relationship with ( yeah that's right, don't bother reading the sentence again.) I never wanted to put a label on whatever the heck it was we were doing. He had asked me numerous times to be his girlfriend and I refused. Why? Because I felt he did not deserve me and I was still hoping for the man of my dreams or something close to come along. Now ask me why I bothered to waste my time with this man? Because to an extent he kept me sane. I was able to vent all my frustrations with the world to him.
This blog happens to be his replacement except for the fact that this blog doesn't think it knows everything and has to give an opinion just to prove how smart it is. Sometimes, all a girl wants is an ear to listen. So people we really need to know when to shut the fuck up and just listen. I'm also guilty of this self-absorbed bad habit.


Also, this blog would not fuck me the way he did. He was good. Reeeeeally good. As much as I enjoyed the sex it was one of the reasons I had to let him go. I couldn't shake the feeling that it was all he wanted. I could be wrong, he tried numerous times to prove to me that that wasn't the case but I just couldn't shake the feeling. Maybe it was because he wanted it so often. The naija girl in me just wasn't having it. If you want to keep fucking me that often you need to prove to me that you really love me and want spend the rest of your life with me and above that I need to love you and want to spend the rest of my life with you (ok scratch the last part loving you will suffice). By the way, I'm not about to fuck up my hot body by going on some contraceptives for someone I don't even care for that much. A condom that fits will do. (Keep it wrapped people. No excuses whatsoever). Besides, I'm trying to save all this goodness for the man of my dreams. Bad enough I can't give him my virginity. Yes I know it's 2007 but I'd be lying to you if I said I didn't regret losing my virginity to someone I really did not care about. Why did I do it? I was lonely, I did not want to die not knowing what sex felt like. (Yes, I lost my virginity much later than most girls.) I was horny, I could go on and on with the reasons the point is at that moment when I was about to have sex for the first time nothing seemed compelling enough to make me stop. Oh, by the way it's overrated especially when you're just doing it for the heck of it. Don't get me wrong I love sex but the way I imagined it would feel far and beyond supercedes the way it really feels. It has taken me a long time to actually find my groove and really enjoy it but I still get more pleasure from touching myself while fantasizing about or even better watching other people get it on. I'm talking porn people no shame in my game. No one can give me as much orgasms as I can give myself. Speaking of orgasms. I broke-up( for lack of the appropriate term) with this guy right after we had sex and he couldn't get me off. I was livid, made it so much easier for me to do it. I don't fuck with my orgasms. You can't get me off, fuck off. The reason I stress this orgasm situation is cause once guys have had their's that's the end of it even if the fat lady has not sang/sung( need to brush up on my grammar. Stay in school kids and listen to you teachers). However, when we gals come we can keep going, and going, and going and going....well you get the point. Guys, you have to be considerate enough to make us come. It's not all about you we like to fuck too.

For those of you gals who have not given it up yet save it for that someone special. I know you've probably heard this a gazillion times but it's so true. Don't get me wrong I don't believe in saving it for marriage because marriage in itself is such a whack-assed institution that I believe it's one of those things we can happily do without, however if you have to do it make sure it's someone you( at least )think you love. You really need to test the goods before you buy.


Next post: The effects of contraceptives and The world's view of African hair. All this will eventually lead to something about sex, I think.